Fortune and the Brave

That feeling that you have to constantly prove yourself.That you have to work for every single...

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 01:15:47 -0400

That feeling that you have to constantly prove yourself.

That you have to work for every single little thing (or person) you want.

I wish it were easier.

But baby there you againThere you go againMaking me love youuuu

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 04:43:26 -0400

But baby there you again
There you go again
Making me love youuuu

Booked for Davao on May. #excited

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 15:11:38 -0400

Booked for Davao on May. #excited

What time will you get here, summer?

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 12:40:00 -0400

What time will you get here, summer?

B

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:43:08 -0400

It took me an hour of staring at a blank screen before I realized that, no, I will never be able to encapsulate the last ten (eleven? twelve?) years in a few paragraphs. I will never be that good a writer.

Thank God, Taylor Swift sings my heart.

I'd Lie

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:30:00 -0400

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I’m holding every breath for you

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, “My god, he’s beautiful”

~Taylor Swift

I'm only me when I'm with you

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:23:00 -0400

And I don’t try to hide my tears
The secrets, all my deepest fears
Through it all,
Nobody gets me like you do.

~Taylor Swift

For you.

Wed, 06 Mar 2013 13:28:35 -0500

When we were in high school and I was still partially insane, I promised myself that I wouldn’t follow her example. I vowed that I would never hurt you. I was convinced that I was the right choice.

I’m sorry that I’m not very good at keeping promises.

I did try. I kept expecting to wake up one day, feeling the same way I did ten years ago. If I were a little less idealistic, I would have taken everyone’s advice and I would have given this a chance to work.

I just turned 26 two hours ago. I’m a little too old to settle for people and things that would not make me happy. You know what I went through so I’m sure you’d agree when I say that I deserve happiness as much as any other person.

You deserve to be happy too. You certainly won’t find happiness in someone who refuses to prioritize you.

Please stop thinking that there’s something wrong with you. You were blameless. I take responsibility for everything.

—-

This is actually a prepared speech. In real life, I stared and shrugged and gave fumbling explanations which were very hurtful. I’m writing this at 2 o’clock in the morning because my guilt won’t let me rest. ~~I GET IT NOW!~~

I hope things work out for you.

Jeremy Scott X Longchamp

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 12:00:45 -0500

Jeremy Scott has to be one of those designers you either hate or love. His designs are extravagant, loud, and bordering on weird. I hated most of his collaboration pieces with Adidas, primarily because most of them are unwearable. A track suit with fluffy teddy bears attached all over it? No thanks.

However, I did find his pieces for Longchamp quite extraordinary. Maybe because I find outrageous bags more tolerable than outrageous clothing? Or because I find classic Longchamp bags utterly ugly that anything different would do them a world of good? In any case, here are some of the bags that caught my attention:

Really cute and something I’d use if I wanted to brag. It has the designer’s name all over it.

The infamous pill bag.

I actually fell in love with this bag when I saw a photo of CL (of 2ne1) lugging one around at the airport. Actually, I just really love anything CL wears. She’s badass.

This is actually my favorite piece. This, I believe, stands for everything Jeremy Scott is. An eclectic mix of prints: baroque swirls, one dollar signs, leopard spots. It shouldn’t work, but Jeremy Scott worked his magic and made it awesome.

I’d love this piece more if I didn’t see the same print on some of his Adidas running gear. It’s still a standout piece nevertheless.

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This is one of those I-wish-I’m-a-lawyer-already-so-I-could-buy-everything-I-want posts. Now I have to go back to being a poor student with a day job I really detest.

Good night non-existent readers! :D

Images of 2012

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 07:57:59 -0500

Thank you’s are unnecessary, don’t you think? I am blessed and I’d like to think that I spend every day of my life showing the people I care about how grateful I am to have them.

This post is a bit late. But the hiatus has made me realize that the more I blog, the less interesting my real life actually is. I guess you can say then that the past few months have been… entertaining? And crazy. Definitely crazy.

Anyway, here’s to 2012. Let’s hope that 2013 will be more awesome.

Strange Fate

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 11:27:59 -0500

~~I guess it’s time for my annual rant about this book.~~

Dear LJ Smith,

It’s difficult to write a book. I get it. Seriously. I have about five half-assed attempts that never got anywhere. I understand that certain things hinder us from actually sitting down and just getting it all out. I’ve read about your family issues about three years ago, and I sympathize. I really do.

However, please try to look at things from a reader’s point of view.

I started reading your books when I was in 2nd year high school. That was about eleven or twelve years ago. I read book nine of the Night World Series when I was a junior (Thank you, Jonep, for lending me the ones I don’t have). I had no idea what Harry Potter was about. My whole young adulthood was defined by your series. When my classmates were gushing about Draco, I was daydreaming about Morgead.

Ever since I graduated high school, I have religiously checked your site for any update on Strange Fate’s release date. I’ve joined fan clubs, rpg communities, blog circles… After all, misery loves company, right? Rumors and speculations only fanned the fire. I NEVER lost hope that it will eventually come out.

But then you came out with three new books for The Vampire Diaries (which is my least favorite series). And rumor has it, you’re also planning on writing a sequel to The Secret Circle (which is my favorite series of all time).

WHY?

Okay, I never did like Stefan and Adam’s characters. So I’m all for killing them off and having Elena end up with Damon, and Cassie with Nick. Unfortunately, I never got past the second chapter of Shadow Souls, because WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOUR WRITING STYLE?! I’ve read ALL of your books, and this is nowhere near how you used to write fourteen years ago.

So there’s that. What’s the point of continuing books that are already DONE? The protagonists ended up with the good, boring guys. Fine. I am SO over that. At least Kaitlyn ended up with Gabriel, so I’m not complaining.

What I need, what all of your readers need, is Strange Fate. The waiting is ridiculous. I don’t even care if it’s as crappy as The Vampire Diaries sequel. I just want it to END and get it out of my system already.

Sincerely,

J

At Work

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 09:53:00 -0400

Posting these here because I am no longer FB-active (and uploading on twitter is not my thing).

Surprise Birthday party for my Boss:

The decoration committee. Right.

Yes, I actually made some of those hanging flower-y thingies. I can be artistic. Who knew.

Inside my boss’s office, with the giant greeting card.

With AC Mangotara and my boss, near my desk.

I stole that mug from an officemate haha

Halloween:

I actually have no costume. We were going for the “my-headpiece-says-it-all” look. But look at my bomber jacket. F/W Balmain 2012 much? :D And I had my hair up again to look more regal. It didn’t work. :))

Random Fridays:

At my desk.

Polaroid. With Eric.

Please notice my hair. This was about two months ago, before I decided to cut it shorter.

But it’s kind of prettier here? Huh.

MUST LOSE WEIGHT BEFORE MY 26th.

Photo

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 02:27:13 -0400

Huh

Wed, 03 Oct 2012 09:35:58 -0400

So, funny story. I was out last Saturday night. I was pretty excited since it’s my first social activity in MONTHS. I even wore a dress, instead of my usual shorts-and-tshirt combo.

The guy I was with was about to pay our bill. A waiter was there cleaning up our table and I was fiddling with my phone and being normal. Well, as normal as I usually am. Then I noticed that my glass (of beer) was left on the table. It was half full so I deduced that the waiter thought I was still going to finish it. Maybe because lukewarm beer tastes marvelous? So I called his attention and said, “Kuya, pasama na rin po ito” and smiled.

After the waiter left, the guy I was with (let’s just call him, TGIWW for short) went and said, “You don’t have to be sarcastic”.

WHAT.

I wasn’t going to finish that glass. I want it out of my sight. End of story. No underlying “you’re stupid and not doing your job properly” message.

Is there something wrong with the way I talk that people would automatically assume that there’s an insult hidden there somewhere? If I wanted to insult someone, I’d say it directly! Sometimes, even face-to-face!

So, TGIWW, if you’re reading this (and I would bet my left arm that you’re not), hey. I know we haven’t seen each other in ten years. And while your last impression of me may be that I’m the girl who steps on other people notebooks just because she could, please know that I did a lot of growing up.

I REALLY REALLY wanted you to see that.

Compartmentalization and Second Chances

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 11:17:00 -0400

Think about it. If you’re my high school friend, have you ever met one of my orgmates? If you’re an orgmate, have you ever met one of my blockmates? If you’re one of my blockmates, have you ever met my parents? The thing is, I don’t like mixing my worlds. If one of them suddenly started falling apart, I take comfort in knowing that I can always ~~run off~~ concentrate on another aspect of my life.

Not that I recommend taking this route, but it works for me.

So seriously, feel lucky (like, winning-the-lottery lucky) if I suddenly decided that I wanted you to meet my friends/family/dogs/five-inch-shoes. It’s not that I want to show you off. (Unless you’re Johnny Depp, then maybe, just a little bit, yes). It’s because I trust you enough to know that you’d probably be a part of my life for a very long time.

It’s really easy to earn my trust. Probably because I’m gullible and incredibly (in the legal sense of the word) naive and idealistic. Apparently, getting dumped a zillion times wouldn’t make me stop believing in happy endings and fairy tales. I even give out second chances like one of those piso-candies.

So before this disintegrates into another one of my pointless entries:

A friend asked me on twitter earlier about this guy I’m spazzing about. High on landi-hormones, I randomly said that I’d bring him the next time we meet. Then I remembered that I’m not the kind of person who does that. I blame you, sleepless Sunday. Since I’m trying out this new thing where I follow through with my promises, I might actually do it. Even though I really don’t want to and it’s way too early for this.

The title includes second chances because of our history. But that’s another ~~entry~~ story.

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Last year, I made three promises: I wouldn’t blog about my love life, I would not get into a relationship, and I wouldn’t fall in love. At least, until the end of this year.

I plan on keeping all three. :)

The High Road

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 07:03:06 -0400

What would I get by insulting you in return?

As the costs (to my character and conscience) are far greater than the benefits (of putting you in your place), I have nothing to say.

Say what you want to say. I did nothing to deserve your words. If saying them made you happy, then so be it.

I really don’t care anymore.

Hospicio de San Jose

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 03:54:13 -0400

Since I am no longer FB-active, I decided to post these pictures here instead.

Taken yesterday at the Hospicio de San Jose. A few officemates and I decided to join the Bureau’s Feeding Program. Surprisingly, a lot of people I didn’t expect to see were there (which, I suppose, is an indicator of how judgmental I am, sorry). The Commissioner was there. My boss was there as well. We only stayed for 2 hours, maybe less, but it was a great experience. I am no stranger to charity events like this, but something about seeing kids in this setting really makes you see the bigger picture. I wish I could help more. Maybe when I finally become the lawyer I’ve always wanted to be? In any case, this certainly won’t be the last time I’ll visit this place. :)

It’s probably just my shaky hands, but what the heck is wrong with my phone’s camera? Ugh.

Wasn’t able to take pictures of myself. Was in a bit of a rush. I had to return to the office to finish some stuff, then I had to go and do a lot of errands. On my way home, I realized I didn’t have my Kindle in my bag so I panicked. Kept picturing different scenarios (including, writing an incident report so that the utility staff can search in the office to buying a new tablet- since the Toshiba one looks so amazing!) Apparently, I just left it a home. BIG sigh of relief. My whole life is in that tablet!

Photo

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 02:12:37 -0400

Is this seriously Chanel?

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 02:09:03 -0400

Is this seriously Chanel?

Photo

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 23:34:05 -0400